In the gospel according to Luke we read :

But Peter said, " Man I do not know what you are talking." 
At that moment , while he was still speaking , 
a cock crew; and the Lord turned and looked 
straight at Peter....and Peter went outside and wept. 


I related well with the Lord. I would converse with him,
thank him , ask for help. 

But always I had this uneasy feeling that he wanted me to 
look at him.. And I would not . I would talk, but look away when 
I sensed he was looking at me . I was afraid I should find an accusation in his eyes of some unrepented sin. Or a demand: 
something he wanted from me. 

One day I summoned up courage and looked ! There was no 
accusation. No demand. The eyes just said , " I love you. " 

And , like Peter , I went outside and wept. 



-By Agatha Lai